I hope this nails shut this Chapter of my life, Goodbye PCABUSER

GreenTurtle · Post by **GreenTurtle** » Sat Apr 14, 2001 2:33 am

After loosing so many so close to me this year in such tragic ways that would have drove most people to the loony ben, I hope this is the final icing on the cake for the year of 2001.

She was the one since Jr High. She was the one since High School. She was the one I thought about all through college. She is still the one I can't get out of my head. I knew it can never work out between us. I knew it was for the absolute best I didn't pursue her for reason that was obvious to me but probably not to her.
I've been absolutely ice cold to every girls I've ever met. I guess I can be a jerk for life now.

A Strange chill ran through my blood as news of her engagement hit me. This insignicant news is the straw that broke the Camals back. Funny how after going through so much, this is news that finally made me flip. Even though me and her would have never been...I can't stand the thought of her marrying somebody else.....damn it I know I love her more than any other mad man on earth.

So to everyone at PCABUSER..goodbye.
To the year of 2001, a big f*ck you and and both middle figures at you I hope you pass by and leave me alone. From now on, I hope everything leaves me alone.

b-man1 · Post by **b-man1** » Sat Apr 14, 2001 2:39 am

sorry to hear things are not going well, but it sounds like you need a reality check. i don't think that letting someone you're not even in a relationship with destroy your life is healthy, and you should find someone to speak with about this. also, part of being in love (whether the other person knows it or not) is CARING ABOUT WHAT MAKES THEM HAPPY. you should be happy that she is happy.

good luck, man.

EvilHorace · Post by **EvilHorace** » Sat Apr 14, 2001 7:51 am

Gotta say that not only does the story lack real details BUT I can't imagine what any of it has to do with this site or anyone here in a personal kind of way?

hammer01 · Post by **hammer01** » Sat Apr 14, 2001 8:05 am

Well if you need us for support GT we will still be here, I was much like you are now, about 12 years ago, but then I met my wife and my life has been much better in so many ways. It will get better, trust me on that.

flavio · Post by **flavio** » Sat Apr 14, 2001 2:06 pm

i don't get it

nexus_7 · Post by **nexus_7** » Sat Apr 14, 2001 2:10 pm

glad im not the only one. eithor way I hope stuff works out 4 ya and ya come back after you get taken care of what needs taking care of.

Greg

Post by **sbp** » Sat Apr 14, 2001 4:53 pm

Did you ever ask this woman out? If not why not? Did you believe she would never get married?

bitSLAP · Post by **bitSLAP** » Sat Apr 14, 2001 5:29 pm

Like WHOA guys...backup. Why are you saying goodbye GT?

I'm not sure you're looking for us to console you on this one. Just keep your lungs breathing and there's still tomorrow.

Hipnotic_Tranz · Post by **Hipnotic_Tranz** » Sun Apr 15, 2001 12:23 am

Guys, see it at face value; he's pissed/depressed as hell and just wants to give it all up. He's probably thinkin' of himself as a computer geek or soemthin' and just wants to take a break/get away forever from it.

I've been in your shoes, there is this girl I like that i know I have no chance with (even though I asked her out and all that jazz) It's not that she doesn't like me (I don't know if she does or not) but shes asian and her parents won't let her date/marry anybdoy unless they are asian also. Leaves me in the dark.... I've now forgotten about her and said "fvck you" to "her" and moved on. I don't even think about her anymore.

Look dude, just know we are here for ya and not to worry. Shit'll brighten up. Now go have a few beers with your friends and hit on some girls in da bar

ok? Don't leave us hangin' like this.

smb · Post by **smb** » Sun Apr 15, 2001 1:03 am

I hope your O.K.

Red Dawn · Post by **Red Dawn** » Mon Apr 16, 2001 1:10 am

You'll be ok as long as you don't think about somebody else making love to her night after night.

cak · Post by **cak** » Mon Apr 16, 2001 1:36 am

Theres the comfort he came looking for lol.

blade · Post by **blade** » Mon Apr 16, 2001 1:55 am

Wow red, you sure know how to make a depressed person feel better.

Time will heal Turtle man.

Sorround yourself with friends and family and they'll help a lot. Eventually you'll meet another and you'll forget all about her.

Snelski · Post by **Snelski** » Mon Apr 16, 2001 3:42 am

GT, please take a dddddeeeeeeeeeeeeeppppppppp breath and allow yourself to come to some kind of peace within yourself - I really worry that you don't feel like anything is worth anything and you just can't put that all on a relationship that never happened in reality. We all have had crushes, both huge ones and tiny ones, but having them become obsessive is the last thing to do. I also thought I would become a pathetic old man someday that wouldn't have anything to show for myself (except for everyone to just laugh at to make their own pathetic lives seem better).

When I met my wife she was married (all the way back in 1983), and I already thought to myself "man, here is a girl that I really like and guess what? She married and that's it"... Little did I know that I would some day marry that girl and I'm REALLY happy now. I can talk to this woman until the day is so far gone, I never get enough of her - she is my soulmate. I didn't meet her again until I was 29 though and as far as relationships went I was pathetic up until that point. I really never thought this would all happen for me and I too was p*ssed at life a lot.

With 2 kids from her previous marriage (who luckily have a dad that is such a jerk that I didn't have to be that great a dad to seem wonderful to them

), I really have found what I thought I would never experience. I was almost 30 though when I found it, and when I looked back at all the people that I thought were happy and "had it all" I found out that most (and I really mean MOST) people lead a very sad existence. Even my brother who I thought had it all (and let me know that I was the 'supposed' screwup in the family) ended in divorce and it was all a farce, their 'marriage' was nothing like they wanted everyone to believe.

I know this is probably a little too much information for this post, but I guess I just want you to know that life is way too short to spend it on "it coulda been" or "maybe if I did this" kinda thoughts. I believe in God and that pulls me through some of the rough spots in life, be thankful for what you do have and things just have a way of working out...they always seem to IF you give it time enough to play itself out in life.

I'll wish you a belated happy Easter, and I hope that some time will heal your difficulties

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